Thursday, October 26, 2006

::oH giRLs jUsT wAnNa HaVe FuN.,., YEAH::

happy happy happy sembreak...


the whole break was like the most perfect and wonderful vacation for me ever..
i stayed in Las Pinas *cousin's place* for long that i don't feel like missin home.. hehe.. kiddin.,,
well, petty but that's the first time i experienced watching movies na parang libangan lang..
i mean in my life, it's very seldom, me, watching movies.. like i get to watch one once a month or worst, not at all.. hmmm... what else...


well,, masaya talaga ako kasi sobrang naramdaman ko dito yung freedom but at the same time, nakakapagtrabaho parin ako.. nagliligpit..., naglilinis... hmmm... well, mom got mad kasi akala yata nila super senyorita ako dito.. which is not true kasi hindi naman talaga..

well, i got everything i planned for for this vacation...
i got the chance to bond with my cousins.. i saw my dearest pamangkin cuz i barely get to see her cuz we live nga in quezon city.. i got to experience eating different food compared to what mom often cooks... and promise... the evryday food was so good and sure thing my favorite past time now is eating.. haha the only thing worst was i don't even gain a little weight... *shoot* hmm.... that's my dream and my frustration.. not to get fat but to gain just a lil weight..


hmm.... funny thing was i was supposed to be home last 24th but plans were changed... and now,, i'm still here.. blacksheep of the family.. here i go again.. hmmm.... look, it's not that i want to disobey mom or dad but i just wanna prove them that i can be responsible and they can trust me. i know i was not a good daughter but i'm changing... i know i'm changing... and i just wanna enjoy my teenage life away from them pero babawi ako... but there are things that they do not understand. they keep on saying that i'm just here to have a good time and all but the truth is.. i want to have a life kahit sandali lang away from them... that's the thing..


by the way, we've gone to manila to enroll for my 2nd sem..
we had to leave here so early but imagine, we left past 8.. we arrived school past 10..
and sobrang haba ng pila... as in... so we decided to pay nalang sa BPI for a more fast service..
but try to imagine this, we haven't eaten... and we ate..... 730 in the evening,,, tae diba??
but before that, i wanna share that from manila... to specific, in lawton, we went straight to sm southmall from there just ridin a bus and a jeepney... haha... sobrang saya ng experience na yon cuz it was my first time...


we watched a movie and ate at mcdo,, hehe...
it was a friend's bday so he treated us... saya talaga...
so much about that....


havetah park na muna...

see you later...


~,.*krizh*.,~

Posted by kReEzH at 12:28 AM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

After a long and stressful sem...
finally, makakapagpost na ulit ako..
hmmm....


Well, before mag-end tong sem na toh...
daming requirements na pinass..
sobrang nkakastress and nakakapagod..
plus, i was facing a lot of problems that time..

About love..
about my family..
about my friends..
and about myself..


First,, about love?!
duh?! kelan ba hindi pinoblema ang love?!
putek! lagi naman diba?
lalo na pag tinamaan ka nun... malupet yon!
hmm.... failed love story nanaman..
hmmm.... kailan ba ko madadala?
sabi nila.."Easy come, easy go!" daw ang dapat na motto!
Eh diba lagi ka naman affected pag love na pinag-uusapan.?
kasi pag di ka naapektuhan, it means you never loved..
hmmm...
So, yun na nga...
good thing, ok na ako... hmmm....buti nalang may awa pa si LOrd sakin...


About my family.....
hindi masyadong maganda..
mejo laging nag-aaway...
hmmm..... wala na kasi silang trust sakin..
baliw kasi ako eh...
hirap tuloy ibalik yun...
haii....
tapos sobrang hirap for me na magpaalam ult pag aalis...
hindi ko na mabalik yung dati kong freedom..
ang lungkot...
kasi di ko rin alam kung saan ko iddivert yung attention ko ngayon..
ang lungkot kasi..
bawal umalis..
bwal mag-overnyt..
bawal magvacation kahit sa mga pinsan..
tapos marami pa kong worries ngayon...
wala akong makausap...
and hirap...
nakakabaliw kasi pag sinasarili mo lang yung mga problems...
problema sakin ayoko rin naman magshare..
nahihiya kasi akong magsabi sakanila kasi hindi rin nila yun maiintindihan..
kaya everytime na gusto kong umalis or magsleep-over sa ibang house,
akala nila, gusto kong magpasarap... pero hindi...
masyado lang kasi akong nalulungkot dito sa bahay...
haii....
kaya mas mabuti pa na hindi ako magsalita kasi hindi nga nila maiintindihan yun...


Sa friends...
I'm havin a good relationship with my friends
pero minsan nagkakaron din lang kami ng misunderstandings..
kaya lalo akong nalulungkot kasi sila nalang ang natitira tapos nagkakagulo pa kami...
haii.... sobrang lungkot talaga...


Sa sarili ko naman...
ang dami dami kong problema!
tanga kasi ako...
mabilis mauto..
mabilis magtiwala...
kaya madali ding masaktan..
hindi na nadala..
minsan inisp ko, nakakapagod mabuhay
kasi paulit ulit nalang...
hmmmm.....
lagi nalang akong umiiyak...
minsan natatakot narin akong maging masaya..
kasi alam ko later on iiyak nanaman ako!
natatakot ako kapag sobrang bait ng isang tao sakin..
kasi later on pag sanay na kong anjan siya,,
kukunin na siya sakin...
ang bigat sa loob... ang bigat sa puso.... ang drama ko!

OO! madrama nga! eh sa yun yung totoo eh... magagawa ko?!
hmmm.....
sa ganitong paraan na nga lang ako nakakapaglabas ng sama ng loob
kasi kung magsasalita ako, walang magchachagang makinig sakin..
hmmmm......


ilang beses pa kaya akong iiyak?


ilang beses pang masasaktan?!


gano pa katagal maghihintay?


nakakapagod........


nakakangalay......



maia nalang ulit.....



~.,*krizh*.,~

Posted by kReEzH at 11:35 PM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Life's bitter... but friends make it much sweeter::

This day’s kinda bitter…
as in puro bitterness..
well... not all naman..
daming things that made me a bit sad..
I did enjoy the rest of the day pero talagang may hindrance parin..
Not that I have my period and it’s my first day..
Nor the fact that I didn’t ate a lot this morning.. *I’m masungit kasi pag hungry..*

Well.... I must say na mejo rocky nanaman and life ko nowadays..
but this time, I know it's not my fault..
It's their fault..
I'm trying my best to reach their standards pero parang wala parin..
I'm trying and trying my best not to talk or fight back pero ang hirap pala..
it hurts me big time..
sobra pala ang iyak once na pigilin mo yung sarili mo to talk back and explain..
pero I just do that to explain my side.. alam niyo yon?
All I can say is that it's always different when it comes to me..
pag yung iba, parang wala lang...
parang tiger sina nanai at tatai pero ang bilis lang mawala..
eh sakin? parang cursed little girl ang drama!
nanlilisik sa gigil ang mga kontrabida..*xmpre ako yung bida..*
I'm not making paawa or what but if you guys try to look at my life here, it's a burden..
ok! I must say,, there are times na masaya ako.. but most of the time... I'm not..
It's like minsan masarap mabuhay and minsan hindi..
I agree that life's a wheel.. umiikot lang yan.. minsan you're at the top but there will be times na mapupunta ka sa bottom..
hmmm..... bad life.... sour life... I love my life and hate it at the same time..


Happy that I have my friends around..
langyang mga friends yan...
lagi nalang sila noh?
makes you smile..
makes you cry.*because of joy..*
makes you stumble.*kakatawa.*
makes you dance..
makes you sing..
makes you feel everything na never mo pang nafeel sa buong buhay mo..
kasama mo sa away..
sa saya..
sa lungkot..
sa inuman..
sa sleepover..
sa tambay..
sa klase..
at sa lahat ng bagay na pwede mo silang mahatak..

Mga friends na yan..
pamilya ko na..
pano na ko kung wala sila?
hmmm... kahit tuloy mahirap mabuhay.. nagiging masarap.. at nagiging mas masaya..!

Meron pang isa...
this person...
I'm not yet sure kung totoo siya..
and hirap na kasing magtrust sa panahon ngayon..
masaya ko pag anjan siya..
maalaga..
sweet..
sana nga...
pero ang weird din kasi ng feeling..
butterflies in your stomach?! parang ganon.. *yackx*
tapos my kuryente.. *weh?!*
pero hindi rin...
basta... ewan...


enough about this...



maya...



~,.*krizh*,.~

Posted by kReEzH at 2:22 AM

Monday, September 04, 2006

the sweat and the fun::

nothin much to say..


just wanna leave a post...


Yesterday was an adventure...


We had our Alay Lakad for NSTP class..


that walk was so hagard... and i was sweatin all over.. hmmm.. badtrip..


Then.. Panget made me xundo then we went to their house..


We ate, we laughed, we listened to music..


and we bonded with her cousins.. and lola!


He brought me home but unfortunately, it rained hard...


so we stayed for awhile til the rain stopped...


I came home at about past 8..


and dad was so mad.. as expected...


It's not new to me though...


til next time...
have to park...


later..




~,.*krizh*,.~

Posted by kReEzH at 1:49 AM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

oh happy day::

wuhoo!!


am s0 happy today..
actually from last saturday up to now
i'm experiencing total happiness...
no really.. i am..


finally, am done with my report...
not just a report but a "zillion heart beat nervous breakdown report".. haha
I was so nervous that time and i thought i was gonna faint.. believe me...
am not the type who's confident and professional enough to speak and expose myself in front of........................................ MY CLASSMATES.. haha...
what more after i graduate? duh?! am dead!! hihi..
thank GOD it came out very well and we looked very much prepared... haha... good for us..
not to brag,but I, including 3of my classmates were asked to join the what they call ORADEC..
hello?! when I heard of that organization.. a lot of things popped in my head...
big time! professionals! If you're a member, yo're someone to look up to.... things like that..
at take note and I quote.. "AKO?! sure kayo?!" I, myself can say that i don't deserve to be a part of that org... besides... it's creepy... yoko pang mamatay,....


ok... about saturday...
That was bhe's debut party..
the setting was fantastic..
Lights, The buffet... fabuloso!!
there was even a live band... not well known but an awesome group...
The food was great though i didn't eat that much..
I sang with the band and that experience was quite shameful but i enjoyed it..
people were staring as if i'm hitting the wrong note.. hehe..
we drank a bit and danced.... haha... saya!
we made kwento til we drop...
the next day,, we had our breakfast still in bhe's place before leaving...
I came home so stressed so i slept again....


now i must stop....


got nothin much to say...



see you later...



~.,*krizh*,.~

Posted by kReEzH at 5:01 AM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

depression keeps buggin::

bla.,.,bla.,.,bla.,.,


though i laughed a bit..
still i don't get it why I ended up being sad..
tapos badtrip yung mga tao..
hmmm...
some people have conflicts..
kim... (kaya masunget.)
mico...(kaya umuwi agad.)
foz...(wala lang. parang iba lang siya today.)


I, myself, admit na may sama din ako ng loob sa isang tao...
well.. we're close..
we're super tight...
we care for each other..
we used to laugh out of our own stupidity..
I can clearly see myself in this person...
This person is my family..
Very well appreciated lahat ng ginagawa niya for me..
mahilig kaming magsayaw na 2..
I love this person so much..
alam niyo.. ang dami pa eh...
pero habang nagttype ako at nag-iisip...
lalo pa kong nalulungkot...


Bigla nalang siyang nagbago...
di na niya ko masyadong kinikibo..
though sometimes, nakikipagkulitan parin siya sakin...
parang hindi na kami ganun kasaya..
Dati.. sweet pa siya...
ngayon, lagi na niya kong binabara...
never na kong nakahirit sa kanya..
tapos makikita ko... may iba siyang palaging kasama...
kung anu yung samahan namin before..... ganun sila ngayon...
hmmmm.... ang lungkot... nakakaiyak.....


Ang mom ng friend namin na si tin,, wala na...
ang lungkot...
never ko pang inexpect na iiyak ako...
ang sakit din para sakin...
ramdam na ramdam ko yung bigat ng loob ni tin...
I prayed for her mom and for her as well..
kahit hindi ko alam kung kaya niya, I believe that with God's grace..
massurpass niya yung sakit na yun at makakamove on siya...


Wala na kong fone...
nasira ko...
kaya tinitiis ko as long as kaya ko...
tae! asa naman sa bagong telepono diba?
goodluck naman kung maawa sila nanay sakin at ibili ako ng bago...
kaya aun... para kong namatayan..
tulala pa ko kanina... parang tanga lang...


Grabe... curse this day...



I must stop coz it makes me cry... *weh?! tae!*



see you later...



~.,*krizh*,.~

Posted by kReEzH at 5:38 AM

Monday, August 07, 2006

*rob the jewelry store and tell em make me a grill.! yeah*

bla.,.,bla.,.,bla.,.,


Today's post is yesterday's experience..


Yesterday, that was August 06, was our tour!! *yipee.*
I woke up past 4..
prepared my things, fixed myself and left the house with a big luggage! *weh?!*


I came to school..
saw matt and fozy..
we looked for our bus and waited for the others..
Guess what? half of the bus... were occupied by nursing students..
Nursing students, ones who were expected to be quiet and behaved pero sa totoo lang..
PARE.. and ingay din nila sobra.. there were instances wherein talagang tatalunin nila yung ingay naming mga masscomm!! haha...


Ok! About the tour....
We visited museums such as Vargas' Museum sa UP..
It contained paitnings of the Vargas Family.. grabe! Pulidong-pulido! sa sobrang gigil mo, baka mahawakan mo! *Aii, no tatz pala. hehe*


Next stop, Blanco Museum..
In there, were paintings of the Blancos.*obvious ba?`*
well.. cool thing was, yung mga sobrang bata pa like 6 up to 14 and so on were able to paint such a masterpeice.. *grabe! kung nakita niyo lang.. ang galing nila! ang babata pa.. mahuhusay na.. *anu daw?! haha.*


Next location was Vicente Manansala's Crib.. *weh?! house pala.*
Cute ng house niya... kahit oldy na yung mga gamit..
Doon, nakapreserve yung mga gawa ni Manansala.. ang gaganda..! *smiley*


Lunch Break at Forest Park..*if i'm not mistaken.*
Ang saya... may mga animals pa...
We saw a fantastic monkey...
aba.. ang arte kumain ng oreo.. haha... cute talaga..
sobrang busog naman kami sa mga dala naming food..


Next... Morong Church.. *yata.*
sobrang solemn nung place.. and quiet..
super quiet time talaga yun para samin kasi we get to pray..
ganda nung church...


Next.... Angono Cave! *Awooooo! hehe*
grabe yun.. Masyadong hindi bagay yung suot kong shoes,.,
We crossed that cave na mabasa-basa pa.. supr nature ang drama! haha..
Feeling ko naman adventurous na ako sa lagay n yon kahit sobrang ikli lang nung tinawid namin.. tapos meron kaming inakyat dun... sobrang taas pero ang ganda naman pagdating mo sa taas,,,


Then... Last stop, The Light house thing na merong Big tree sa top..
ang sarap ng hangin dun,,., kahit na sobrang pagod na, nakakarelax parin...



Yung pinakahighlight ng tour was the roadtrip...
grabe... sobrang saya...
we took a lot of pictures.. as in ka-daming pictures,,, haha..
grabe pa ang ingay sa bus! jusko... buti hidni nairita si sir humanities! haha..
May jamming pa... courtesy of our class.. Yung mga nursing? quiet lang s part na yon.. hehe..
Over all, sobrang saya talga nung tour na yon... kahit sobrang pagod,, ok lang.,.,


I came home around 9-10...
tapos...
bagsak... haha
nagdinner lang tapos tulog.. hehe



haiii.. i know I must stop...
kapagod na...
hehe



See you later...



~.,*krizh*,.~

Posted by kReEzH at 1:43 AM